Goodbye lyrics

I remember it like it just happened

I could've sworn it was a dream

But in reality it hit me like a nightmare

Or at least that's how it seemed

I just got a grip on our relationship

We was ironing things out, started picking up steam

And when we didn't need it is when it all got heated

And we both said some things that we probably didn't mean

Then God intervened, guess more was at stake

Thought we left nothing over, He put more on the plate

She came home from the doctor with news I've been wanting

Says family was incoming, she's pregnant, twins coming

But that's gotta be a lie

She sighed, couldn't stop the tears coming from her eyes

That birth control she on, for them it's suicide

As long as it's still inside, two of them wouldn't survive

Hard turn from memorable to cynical

Picturing clothes for what would've been identical

Similar outfits, similar names

My deceased kids' ultrasound in a frame

So I'm deprived of my chance to be a better dad

Staring at my twins that I never had

I shed a tear, looking up in the sky

Even though y'all just got here, goodbye

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell

But it's not the end of the chapter

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell

I'll see you again in the afterlife

My biological sperm donor, didn't wanna be a daddy

So he hopped in his Caddy and turned corners on us

Turned on us out the clear blue

His last memory of his son is seeing me through his rearview

I still love him yo, but I love his brother more

My uncle showed me love no one could know

Young and poor with a tougher road

To suffer hunger was nothing but Unc' would hold

Us down, help moms lift the motherload

I got grown and

I used to wonder what it would be like to speak to pops as a grown man

He provided that feeling, told me to take my career into my own hands

He was there when I had no fans

My cellphone rings, and after I answer

A voice says "Your uncle's been diagnosed with cancer"

Worst news in my life

Him and chemo going 12 rounds with a disease and they both losing the fight

I'm rushing up to Cedars-Sinai

Praying for a miracle, I don't wanna see my idol die

Before he did, the look in his eyes

Said "Even though you just got here, goodbye"

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell

But it's not the end of the chapter

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell

I'll see you again in the afterlife

I'll see you again in the afterlife

Someday in heaven we will reunite

The flesh disappears but the soul survives

Till next time, my friend, farewell, goodbye

I walked in your daughter's house, knowing that you gone

But still looking out the corner of my eye, hoping you on the couch

That call felt like I was beef that had got shot up

Ironic, I was on tour with Tech N9ne and Slaughterhouse

D tried to talk to me, Crystal rubbed my back, as they was pouring out

I caught the next thing soaring out

Now I'm in the air, in the midwest somewhere

They said turbulence was severe, I don't know what they talking bout

I ain't feel a bump, body numb, mind drifting

I'm sniffling, asthma acting up, I'm whistling

I'm wishing my mother's face looked so much different

I'm kissing my son, my aunt pacing in the kitchen

My vision blurry, still I saw your face clear

What a loss, this time I did more than waste beer

Michelle's strong, she held on, we got all the way there

Then we walked in, she fell on the floor, this ain't fair

You was the voice when I considered them thoughts that ain't clear

Hey granny, I was fifth row at the Grammy's

An award they ain't hand me, but I sat behind Will

And right in front of Wayne, and got seen by the family

I miss the early morning convos, believe me

Regis on the TV, and the best baked ziti

But you had an all white affair, grandpa's all fly

Even though you been got there, goodbye

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell

But it's not the end of the chapter

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell

I'll see you again in the afterlife